It's clear to me that your divorce wasn't enough to enable closure - your haunted by the memories and actions of your past. In short you haven't forgiven yourself. Constantly trying to seek her forgiveness will do nothing other than compound your guilt. You did what you did - it is done. Her feelings, no matter what and how they are put across, are her feelings. Let her be with them. You can leave her to her anger or share in it. It's really that simple. What is harder is how to build a new life. You have your beautiful daughter for starters, she should be priority. Focus on giving her and yourself the wonderful memories you deserve and one way or another, you will eventually find peace with what has happened. Just don't lose sight of what you have over what has been lost. You deserve better than that.