Hi, all.
Thanks, Fayerody, for your support of my choices. Meeting and dating is out of the question for me right now.
Razeljenny, I'm not mad at you or upset at all for your observations. Some of what you have said is actually true! It's just where I am right now, and it feels okay.

I woke up at 4 a.m. this morning pondering my art compositions for my advisor/professor at the university. I must submit them to him next week. This kind of immersion in my art is a good thing, and something I ignored for many years in favor of concentrating on my relationships with men. I see it now as a real waste of my time and energy. I also know that the ME now would respond quickly and confrontationally to the BS these men were handing to me! LOL! and HOORAY! So, if these experiences were worth anything, it is that I have learned something. Some lucky women know all this intuitively, but my history was to be a fixer and a doormat.
Just let me give you one example of how I have changed::::
The old high school friend recently divorced who lives just a few miles from me. In my past mental, emotional mode I might have tried to make a relationship with this man, who has told straight up he is looking for sex, first and foremost. We know each other from way back and were always good friends, but there is no way I would enter into a shallow relationship with him now, though he continues to email and call.
Also, I work with other single women my age who never date and they seem fine with their life, and are happy. I seem to have become one of them!
Patty