Mental illness - or as Gus put it, and as I prefer, 'brain chemistry disorder' - can affect anyone at any time. There is no hard and fast rule that only people with such-and-such have it, or that you have to be a certain age, or be born with it, be rich, poor, a certain color, size, or ability. It just happens. I'm sorry you're having a hard time getting the treatment you need. I hope it starts to go more smoothly.