I really need to thank all of you - not just who posted here in response to my note but all - I read other notes and words of encouragement and it helps. Thanks

Today for the first time in almost a month I didn't cry. YEAH!! seems like a small thing but wow, I just noticed this afternoon that I hadn't cried all day - wow what an accomplishment - it really feels good - hopefully I am getting better and can start to handle some of this as a reasonable person instead of just knee jerk reacting all the time -

THANK YOU ALL