Gosh back2ncgirl, I don't have any experience but wanted to know "you've been read". I dearly hope something is going to work for you, I do not wish anyone to experience this pain. I do know the frustration and hopelessness of "nothing working". I've been severely depressed for about a year now, nothing compared to your length of course, but nothings worked so far - meds, routines, etc. It makes me feel more hopeless and desperate and I can't say that I have a normal life with job, etc. , so to that part I can relate.