Hello- I am fairly new to PC and haven't written much more than some poetry but I really need help. My doctors can't seem to help me and I know that the best person to find help from is someone who has been where I am. Hopefully you are here and you read this.
I am 34 years old and female. I have struggled with depression, PTSD, and been diagnosed with other things over the years. In May I was put on disability from work due to some sexual harassment issues causing major flair up in my symptoms. I am dealing with that stuff leagally but my mental and physical state is somewhere it has never been before. I guess the main thing is the physical pain I can't seem to get under control. I've got problems with joints locking up, muscles pain and all that. I have a TENS unit that doesn't help much. But the thing that I can not deal with is my head and ear pain. It gets so bad that I want to shove a knife or something into my ear just to make that pain go away- like a different pain would be better. I have never dealt with ear pain and this must be the worst ear pain there is, I have visions of taking some kind of tool and just carving into my ear to get it out- It is horrible. My doctor has tried all sorts of medications, nothing works- muscle relaxers, pain medication- nothing. I am unable to functin at all, in fact- I just would rather be alone with quite and sleep. Is there anyone who knows this ear pain and what it could be? Suggestions of any kind? I can't deal with this anymore- I have two beautiful little girls who are suffering because I am always miserable. PLEASE HELP