This morning I woke up and could frown about 1/10th of the way on the left side of my face. This should have made me happy because it means that my facial paralysis is finally starting to wear off, but it will take at least 18 months for it to be gone. Then I started thinking again, always a bad idea, and now I'm wondering when anything will change in my life. I'm still single, still lonely all day everyday, still feel like a freak when I try to smile at people and only half my face moves. I'm not as hopeless today as yesterday though, so that's a positive thing to dwell on.