Trust me your never alone, there's always someone out there. Give your self a pat on the back for doing well for that time. Also maybe you should see a therapist, you could a hotline, and vent get those feelings out. I know you feel, you want it to be over, I think I'm kinda depressed a little but I have my phases. So it's confusing but hang in there. You really have to take one day at a time. Good luck, god bless.