We all have first loves/crushes and there may be a part of you that still does.
You not saying anything says you are cautious with your emotions.
You leaving and him following you to your room suggest a desire to be close with him.
2nd dream shows you that at one time you felt unstable but when you fell you survived and helped others. You have more strength and courage than you think, you can let go of the past even if you fall down you will be okay.
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