I have so been there, and will likely be back there again. Today is a good day, but that doesnt mean that tomorrow will be. I also was dx with an adenoma in my brain on my pituitary gland. they told me i have to take a pill once a week to help shrink it and see me back in a few months to keep an eye on it. I am sorry you are hurting today. I have 3 kids myself, they are not with me right now, they are at their dads because my bipolar is so out of control, i still have custody but he is keeping them for awhile until i get better under control. How old are your kids? I am glad you have a husband you are so in love with. I do too, and he has literally had to pick me up off the floor sometimes. Try hard to remember in this moment things may seem hopeless, but this too shall pass. I know that is SO hard to do, but I pray that you will be on the upswing soon. Happiness has its own way of taking its sweet time, life aint always beautiful but its a beautiful ride. Hang in there!!!!!!!