Just an update on this. I am visiting friends at their summer house this week and am not getting any alone time so calling T is out of the question right now. I have written an honest account of my thoughts, stressing that I have no plans and that I do intend to be there for my next appt on Aug 20, and I mean to print that out and send to his office address by snail mail. He won't see it until he's back in the office I assume, though perhaps he does check his mailbox, I don't know. In any case it means that the thoughts will be out there.