I don't feel like saying much. I've been experiencing a lot more low mood lately, and when I try to talk to my parents about it, they just tell me that I'm normal and I have to deal with it! I was seeing a therapist until December - around the holidays, and then conflicts got in the way. I never started again even after our schedules were conflict free. I've had lots of people around me (non-family) comment on my moodiness and irritability lately. I hated when nobody noticed how sad I was, but I think I hate it more when everyone is asking me what's wrong. I have also had a few people say that they found my sudden change of emotions scary. I'll go from being very calm to angry very quickly, and it scares some of my friends. I often don't see my inappropriate actions as so. I've been more upset since finding out how other people view the way I act. I am growing very unhappy with myself in all aspects. I have been thinking very lowly of myself as a person in character and appearance. I just want someone to talk to because I've just been feeling so sad. I've been wishing that I had never discontinued with T even when I wasn't feeling as bad at least so I would already have someone to talk to at times like this, where I wake up, and I'm already tired, and I basically cry for 6 hours straight because so much is going through my mind, and I'm so sad and I'm just hating myself so much for a ton more reasons than I can even start to talk about. And my parents just say "we understand" "most people just deal with it" "oh hahaha, you get your temper from me. Just control yourself" "Oh we're all depressed! haha" And I feel so helpless. I can't stop crying. I hardly even know why anymore, I just know I'm so sad. I'm going to college in one month, and I'm really nervous about how I'll do emotionally there. I hardly have the motivation to do my summer work. I can't go a week without having some sort of angry outburst with someone. Hurting myself is always in the back of my mind, and nobody I know understands me. I just want so badly to feel normal. I want to do everything like a normal person, and function normally, and seem normal to my friends. And when I tell my parents I don't feel stable, they just assure me that I really am, and this just feels so hard for me. Maybe I just expect to be superhuman and I guess everything really is how it's supposed to be.