I get the feeling. I was there when I started T. But I got a different perspective from my regular doctor that made sense to me, not sure if it'll help you...

It's like having a 100 ulcers under your skin. The only way to heal them is to cut them open and drain every one of them. It hurts like hell but after a dozen or so you start to feel better. Therapy is the process of draining the ulcers.

If you feel like your T is not doing their job by asking the right questions, or making you feel secure/safe/earning your trust, then it might be time to seek someone new.

Good Luck, just know you're not alone!