I'm in one of these phases right now. It's been like this for months already. All housework is put on hold. Once in a while, I gather my energy and do stuff in the house, it takes so much will power and I am very slow at accomplishing the most simple task. Then, I'm back down without energy or any willpower for many days. I have a lof trouble making it out of here, even getting groceries requires much motivation. Making it out of my apartment is such an accomplishment when I succeed. I sleep for most of the day because I'm always so tired and also, it is this only way I feel nothing. I don't see time passing and actually lose track of time. I find myself crying. It just happens. I don't have anything to look forward to. What I could do about it all dépends on me but since I don't have many interests in any of what I used to like and can't find anything that I could invest into, my schedule is quite empty. And it's not like if I am not trying to find something to spark up my life... The odd times when I think I actually found something to get me out of this state and want to make a step forward, I feel that my system or my meds put the breaks on. This sensation of heavyness crawls back on me and I'm back in this lifeless circle.