I do understand and apperciate Razel's observation, but , let me tell ya, it takes me a very, very long time to process hurt, especially on a romantic level. I am wondering if there is anyone else here like me, or if I am the only one.
I am only now realizing how I should have resonded to insults and failures 5 or 7 years ago! I've posted about this in a new thread.
This is clearly my emotional makeup, to withstand mistreatement, and then blame myself till I finally realize,
"Hey, this wasn't my fault!" I am currently having visualizations of he correct responses, many years too late!If people get into questioning my mindset, I can get into specifics of why I realize all of this, but, trust me, I am correct in my conclusions. I was involved with men who were of bad character and ill intentions. I truly could have lost everything I've worked for in my solo life.
As I mentioned in my other thread about no longer being a "fixer" and a good girl, I now lack the energy or desire to extend myself.
Patty