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Originally Posted by Mastodon
Just an update on this. I am visiting friends at their summer house this week and am not getting any alone time so calling T is out of the question right now. I have written an honest account of my thoughts, stressing that I have no plans and that I do intend to be there for my next appt on Aug 20, and I mean to print that out and send to his office address by snail mail. He won't see it until he's back in the office I assume, though perhaps he does check his mailbox, I don't know. In any case it means that the thoughts will be out there.
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Hey Mastodon,
I haven't been around much lately and missed this thread. Eeek, you are struggling so much with these thoughts
These are not the kind of thoughts you can talk to people about either which is why I think we need to talk to our ts about them because the more we keep these thought in our head and don't let them out or give them a voice the louder they will get inside our heads.
I am wondering if email is a possibilty, I hear you saying you don't want to bother t as he is on vacation and might be busy, and email is great cos t will read it when he is ready and reply if he chooses at his own pace too. I think you do need to let t know about them because the are getting stronger and although you feel ok now and feel stable and that you won't act on these urges but you can't say how you will feel next week, August is a long way away.
I am glad to hear you will be spending time with friends next week and hopefully your feelings will change and you will have some fun and take your mind away from these difficult thoughts. Sometimes just writing them down takes away their power and hold over us and clears our head.