Jlove,

I do understand where you are coming from...it is so hard to make any sort of meaningful connections when you feel like you do. Heck, I'm feeling pretty good lately and I have trouble with social situations; it's very frustrating. It's not fair that this disease robs you of the things that used to define you. I was a successful person, and I lived to be with and in front of people. (I was a musician). That's all gone now. I'm on disability and live with my Mom, my family is gone and I don't know how or if I even can fix it.

I have found out that you have to keep working with your pdoc to get the meds working. I've been driving mine nuts the past 3 months and we have finally found something that works pretty well. (I take lithium, Lamictal and Seroquel). I was calling in at LEAST once a week for over a month. I had never done that before, I just put up with however I felt....but no more.

I guess what I'm saying is don't give up, don't lose heart...things can and will get better. We just can't give up, no matter how bad we want to. You seem to know all the things to do, all the avenues to pursue...just keep on trying, things will get better for you sooner or later.

Just remember you have lots of friends here, we're here for you.

DJ