I agree that you need to see someone and get control over you emotions. You say " just anxiety and depression and OCD" !!!! That's a lot!!!! It would be hard for anyone to cope with all these conditions. If you need medication there's nothing wrong with that. You have a disease---you need medication. But you probably need therapy also. Please get some help before you alienate your friends and family. They can take only so much and then we have to take responsibility for ourselves.
I feel confident that with the proper help you can feel much better.
Good luck