Sorry, this will be me just rambling on about what I currently want to say.

I don't know how to cope when people ignore me or reject me. I was born or made this way. I'm shy and I'm okay to be this way. But many people don't like it. I can talk. I talk so much when I know what to say. This morning, my supervisor asked me about a possible job, I said the time I wanted but he didn't write it down. But for the others, he did. Then, when I was about to go, he asked me and I said yeah, so I guess he knows I want it. I also said see you later to him and he ignored me. I said it out loud to him. I guess he doesn't dislike me. I have this impression that it's the end of the world if one person dislikes me. It might be silly but whenever I see my friend list number decrease on facebook, I feel a little down. I ask myself lots of questions and I assume they might dislike me. I can't help it if I'm a rubbish friend. I don't want to change me. I will speak more when I feel comfortable and when I know what to say. I can't just come up to someone and randomly say something. I also have the difficulty to express what I want to say. Sometimes when I want to say something, I sometimes just forget to say it. Maybe it's just my brain fooling me into believing that I'm disliked.