I was on vacation for 2 weeks and that was great - relaxing. But back to work since Monday. Overwhelming depression and hopelessness. I just don't know what to do. I use coping skills - CBT - cognitive reframing - gratitude list, etc. Maybe it's just a normal adjustment to getting back to work...I don't know. Since I stopped taking the risperdal, my moods have been more noticable...mainly irritable or very depressed. Just feel so messed up psychologically. I hate it.