My boys are 7 and 5, my daughter isabout to be 3, I'm 26 but married an older man so I'm a new grandma and have three step kids, one 19 and twin 15 yr Olds. The oldest lived with us until she became pregnant and moved in w fiance. The twins don't live w usbut come over all the time, spend most of the summer here. We live ten min apart so very blessed to be close with them and they are great siblings to lil ones. I am very blessed and lucky, I know, I just can't get over my feelings or thought pattern, I suppressed my emotions and all for over four years before I had a breakdown. It has been a couple years since the breakdown and I was at least numb and ignoring myself when the avm was diagnosed and my anxiety spun out of control! I have panic attacks about leaving my house or making changes to plans and stay tense all the time now. I can't sleep. I had to start self medicating because it was getting out of control. I'm now trying to find a Dr that will treat me and not cost a fortune.
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