I wish I felt like comfort and self-indulgence...There's just not much I want to do, or can afford to do. If it's not time, it's money and if it's not money, it's time. Or it's really hot out. Fishing is no fun when it's really hot.
I do have a good support system of AA people around me. I will admit, I hate to bother them a lot because there's not a whole lot anyone can do except listen to me gripe, and that's not helpful for either of us. I've picked up extra meetings here and there and I am making more phone calls.
It's rough. It's like my life has turned into one of those "What's wrong with this picture?" things. You know, where there's the regular shot, and next to it is another picture that looks almost the same except the building is missing columns and the red rose is gone. That sort of thing. Where my daily life isn't really affected at all, but people who were always part of my landscape have disappeared.
I'll call my doctor about a physical checkup. I hadn't really thought about that/didn't want to run up the doctors' bills any more.
Thank you for your kind words!