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Jul 17, 2013, 09:59 AM
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Member Since: Jul 2013
Posts: 3
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Hey again,
These are the responses to the questions aagain and some complementary information:
For you Misswimmy1: OCT is the Obssessive Complusive Trouble.
Thank you so much Maus, in fact I like the cat in your avatar, I have one at home 
1/So, And in the very beginning of my escape I used to have an uncontrollable activity with numbers, like counting all the numbers that come into my sight, and found pleasure in that.
This is a weird uncontrollable activity I used to do in the beginning of the trauma, and now it does no longer happen. I even tried to do it lately, and couldn't, I had pain in the eyes, and the head focusing.
I will give you an example:
0173790575
0+1= 1
7+3=10 =1+0=1
7+9=16 =1+6=7
5+5=10 =1+0=1
And the numbers left are: 0 which we can do without and then 7
Which means that we have 3 ones and three sevens.
This is equivalent to all phone numbers, cars registers, IDs, and so many things in which there are numbers.
There is no coincidence, and maybe the companies follow this rule, I don't know.
2/ I can tell you that in the beginning of my adolescence it helped me with poetry, and after that I was kind of thinking all the time, I think that I am this thinker type, because I read once a study about people's types, and one of them is the thinker, who has a big forehead, can't stop thinking, and can read more than three books at once, I used to read more than two books at once, but now, it's beginning to be hard for me to read only one chapter of a book. Then I lose interest.
Look at pictures of all scientists and philosophers, writers and thinkers, and you will notice that they have long foreheads.
3/ In middle school, I had some problems with mathematics, since we had a teacher who wasn't good enough, and other students, did extra hours to be more efficent while I didn't because my parents couldn't afford it, or had other priorities, even when they knew that I had very good grades before.
In primary school first, I had very good grades, but when I saw that my parents didn't pay attention to that, I started losing interest, and had medium grades. I was good at French and Mathematics.
After that in middle school, I had only problems with mathematics.
In high school I did literature studies, where I excelled. Even though there were 3 traumatic events in the same year when I was in the second year of high school: My grand uncle, grand aunt,( who was my real mother in fact). And brother who helped me do some extra hours when I was in 4th grade in primary school died all , in the very same year, and not at once.
At university, I studied English which I liked, and was among the first students, in the English department, that a teacher waited for me to come to start his lesson, because I one the one who interacted fully with him.
I was able to have good grades only through concentration in class, I wasn't the kind that revises to have good marks.
Note: My fluid uncontrollable thoughts helped me at that time, since I felt that I was in the same level with the proffessors, and could even read their minds.
3/ For concentration and reading, I started to do this with all activities, to vary, and let my brain relax from time to time: For example, when I am in a dark room for one hour let's say watching a movie with my partner, I get bored and have an urge to go to the other room, and watch the sky and people through the window...
I don't do a time limit for my concentration, but, I will in fact, to keep record of the case.
Thank you so much, hope it's not so long.
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