Thank you all. You are all so kind.

gayleggg, I'll try.
Feelingopaque, I'll give that list a go.

AV747, I try. I really do. But I am just running on fumes at the moment. My therapist doesn't help. If I tell a family member how I am feeling, they tell me how much worse they have it. I internalize everything. I only cry when alone. I can't talk about it outloud, my body doesn't let me. It's broken.