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Old Jul 17, 2013, 02:33 PM
EricTheRed EricTheRed is offline
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Thank you both very much for your responses. She doesn't seem to be very "victimized" by it, but I'm not sure if she's just pushing it under the rug. It doesn't seem to have affected her sexually (she's a wild one lol) and has no issues climaxing either. I do love and care for her very much. Unfortunately, the last weekend we were together, we didn't have sex (we usually have sex at least once). I just felt I couldn't do it, as I couldn't get the image out of my head. With all the anxiety, I haven't had any sexual appetite at all really (though i believe it's getting better). I'm still not sure how to go about going to the clinic with her, I want to keep it as "no big deal" as I can when I do. I also have the "what if" thought that she was even raped at all, and if she really put up a fight. I feel terrible to think it, and I doubt it's the case, since she cried when telling me, but it creeps in sometimes. It feels really good letting this out of my head, and i'm glad I've found a forum where people want to help eachother. The anxiety I'm feeling has caused me to become overaware of my feelings constantly, and creating tension on the sides of my head. I'll be picking her up tomorrow night and we'll be together all throughout the weekend. We actually plan on enrolling into the community college together. I feel that if I ask us to go get checked at a clinic, she will think that I think she has something, and that I'm freaking out and everything is changing now that she told me that. I don't want her to think that at all, last time I mentioned it to her I told her it was "just to be safe" and that i "doubt if she had anything".