So! I've been feeling fairly normal the last two days, which is nice because I have been getting rather frustrated with happy one day and crying at nothing the next! So let's hope that keeps up!

Had Appointment Number Two with Mental Health Guy. It went a lot better than the first one as he didn't hit any triggers, and I managed to explain that trigger without breaking right down. We did a few mindfullness things, and the one activity was relatively a bust because I 1) can't keep my eyes closed for the life of me (used my hat as a blocker) 2) spent the exercise attempting not to laugh at how silly I felt 3) didn't do well with keeping my feet uncrossed and flat on the floor as that's uncomfortable and awkward for me and 4) having to focus on how specific parts of my body felt made my tattoo VERY itchy and I had to spend that time NOT scratching it! so... that was sorta a bust, but I gave it a shot. On the plus side, he admitted that he feels awkward reading the meditation because he isn't comfortable reading to others. I offered to switch roles because I'm a-ok with reading to others.

Homework for this time really (and I won't see him for two weeks this time) is that I am supposed to get a little memento thingy and keep it with me for a tactile refocusing.

Which, thinking of it later, I used to do actually. I had this little plastic baby soother (they were "cool" at some point when I was a kid... I only got it as it was tossed into the benches at one of my brother's hockey games) and I kept it in my mitt. My mom threw it out a few years ago and I was pissed off because it was something I used to fidget with all the time.

Also been volunteering at a golfing fundraiser thing. Attempted to do some of the golfing today... and I was spectacularly bad but I had fun with it anyway. haha.