Well, I'm heading in the same direction as most of you.

I've had my heart broken recently, even though I may have gotten in a fee scratches in my defense on my ex-boyfriend's heart.

But it was the first time (yes in my what appears young life of 27) that I fell in love for the first time and made love to someone, for only to be dumped due to my major depressive disorder.

I was completely honest with him from the start, that I have MDD (and later found out I also have dysthymia, after the fact) and taht I was on meds and counselling. He seemed cautious at first and tentative, but he went head long into the relationship, and after 2.5 months (ok only 5 mo. relationship, but it felt more like plus a year due to great intimate communication skills).

I'm still resentful that it seems I took most of blame for the failure of the relationship, even though there were other factors. Plus, how can you really trust someone and have faith in them if they aren't there for you in the short run. I feel, like I was given only half a chance, even though it was my first time in an adult relationship (puppy love at 18 doesn't really count, even though that boyfriend lasted double the time this one did, without knowing the probably cause of depressed behavior).
Why do people think they can handle a relationship with a mental health consumer, when they can't even hold on for a few months, while we wait for the mental health system makes us wait to get additional treatment. Ironically enough, I got in to the Mood disorder clinic, 2 weeks after the break up, when the application for assessment was made 2 months earlier, while relationship was starting to go badly.
I know life isn't fair, but can we make it fairer for ourselves.

Bitter & sad in Ottawa