Wanting, I did and I still do. But like Jon said to me doesn't have to do wiht only depression, since I have rapid cyclin and I'm usually in mixed episodes, things can go wrong anytime, the difference is that when I'm depressive, I want to end it all, when I'm maniac, I feel like I'm unbreakeable, like nothing is going to get me, I thank God I haven't had any accidents in the streets that could've kill soembody else or me. My changing lanes during maniac can be pretty scary and I live in a crowded city wiht heavy traffic...