I haven't really been on meds long enough to even get entirely stable on them (been taking the lamictal for about 2 months or so) or to notice any kind of pattern.

But I think this feeling is fairly common. Particularly when you are stable.

For me, I find myself resisting it sometimes because I don't feel like it's doing a damn thing and I find that annoying. But sometimes, it DOES feel like it's working. And at the same time (which is weird) on a day where I feel no pull forward or backward and feel relatively "average", I find myself... missing it. I don't FEEL as intensely as I used to and I feel kind of dead inside.

But... I'm kind of neurotic. And the fact that something I'm taking is changing me beyond something which I can control freaks me out. Some days I just don't like the idea of it ALL. And then some days, when I can literally feel the difference, I don't mind it all.

I also have that problem with my logic. Sometimes my emotions have their own clever way of punching my logic right in the face.