I ate yesterday....you mean that doesn't count for today. I made some yummy chicken salad with grapes yesterday morning....went to my pain specialist & took the chicken salad with me to share visiting my friend & left her the left overs. She cooked talipia for us for dinner & carrots. Got home to my phone I left when I was in a hurry to leave & found 2 calls from collection agencies trying to find my stbxh. Finally crashed around 3am & ate some bananna pudding I brought home from our church meeting on Sunday........didn't wake up until noon.

Found a VM from the mortgage company saying he hasn't paid his new loan modification payment this month & even though I didn't have to sign the loan modification....my name is still on the mortgage even with the quit claim. Finished dealing with the IRS issues trying to get the billing back to my address because they managed to change it when we filed taxes separately this year (long story).....grrrrr & got the change of address form into the post office before 5pm only pick up in the day. Got home & noticed all my plants were wilted in the heat....so I took time to water them.

Stress has been so great....anxiety left me feeling shaking.....went to take a hot shower to chill out just as a huge thunder storm came up.....I took the shower anyway....but not relaxing....almost felt like daring the lightning to strike through my skylight by that point.....storm now past....it's almost 9pm & I still haven't had a bite to eat all day.....

I hate days like this....I need to eat except. Had an ice cream bar & a lot of ice cold water.....first day over 90 all year & the heat is getting to me also. Try not to use the AC to keep the electric bill down....but it's miserable enough I might have to just use the AC anyway......heat & stress leave me not feeling very hungry even when I know I need to eat.....then can't figure out what I'm in the mood to eat......& I just sit here knowing I need to eat.