I feel your pain. Being social is something I'm chasing. I do the best I can, but it's still not as good as it was before my break. I keep putting myself in social situations to see if things come back to me or if I can jump into a conversation, more often then not I keep to myself as I'm usually thinking of something else, when I can't find a way to relate. I use to hate going places and thinking that people are watching me and that they all look at me awkwardly, but I got over it eventually and I have faith you will too. Like all things IT TAKES TIME. That is capitalized because it's what everyone tells me. I figured I'd enforce their reinforcement.

I'd say if you can be social, but just chose not to... be happy because you can, it's harder for some people. If you don't like it, save it, because this is a social world as you stated and you'll need it in every job that you have. Also every relationship that you're in. Good luck to you.