Hey, Rainbow
I could be way off with this but I'm going to put it out there.... after reading your post I was thinking that maybe this is you transitioning, preparing for therapy with your T to be over. It feels to me like you are separating yourself from your T little by little. Sometimes it doesn't feel so good and causes some inner turmoil for you....but you always seem to recognize all of the good things about your T. I dunno...these are my thoughts. I wish you all the best and continued growth and much happiness.