I can relate to all this...Yes, it's very hard to trust. I have a hard time trusting that men will stay, be there for me. Same with some girlfriends. I realize I am very open and vulnerable being a sensitive, artistic soul. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and i am kind and accepting and loving of people. So I think some people actually prey on me...like I am a deer running through the forest with arrows flying at me, the Frida Kahlo painting...You know Martin Luther King,Ghandi, and Jesus were too loving for the world to handle and so they were preyed upon. I am not saying I am like them, but maybe there something to this concept. I am learning to put boundaries, to say NO to people, to stand up for myself if someone has wronged me. I am tired of being nice all the time...putting up with people treating me poorly or dumping their garbage on me... My last boyfriend said nothing was going on with his ex and that they were not going to get together. He was pursuing me physically, then the very next night he was hooking up with her. My sense of trust and respect was shattered. I don't know why I have attracted men like this 5 times.. I guess my dad was like that, lied to my mom, left the family for another woman, then died.. I have a lot of trust and abandonment issues...thanks.