Its been almost a year exactly since I SH. Tonight I did it. I can't believe I did it. I know it's only gonna be a relapse but I'm so high from cutting and I'm in so much shock I don't even know. It's not even that bad. The drama wasn't even that bad but my heart has been so broken recently apparently that's all I needed. ****. I need advice. On anything.

Now my friend who I just helped through her relapse won't talk to me as soon as I said I needed help. ****