I am grateful my T is not afraid of contact between sessions and I was no longer required to "sit with my feelings" like T#1 did. I never improved that way. The contact has helped me trust, be more open and made me feel like I am supported and he actually cares. I have made progress and I am starting to understand what triggers me and how to deal with it myself. Yah I have felt abandoned at time because I did not get the response I needed or expected which activated child parts in me but I learned how to recognize that. It taught me that I need to step away from my feelings, talk to the wounded part....telling her we are not his only client and he is busy with, workshops, chart notes, other clients in crisis, new clients, wife, dog life. It took a few months but I am starting to be able to stay in adult phase and not need and seek such attention.
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