Open Eyes I thank you so much for your story about the horses.I would love to be able to work with any living thing besides myself with all this trauma to feel the love and see the patients needed.

I have a world full of trauma right now and everyday I get more.My mother tells me to go ^ myself, my father a banded me when my parents split when I was 4 and I never had any love from family. Now my mom tells me nasty things, emotionally abuses me, tells me how horrible my behavior is. My T told me to stay away from her....while my daughter is there.

I am seeing T 2 times a week now.My moral support consist of my T and my oldest sister. My T told me to keep my daughter over with my mother for the time being so I do not traumatize my daughter. I believe my mother is doing more harm to my daughter now emotionally and me being absent.I would like to go get my daughter and bring her home and never speak to my mother again!

Now getting new news that the trauma from this accident could go on another 5yrs....I am lost for words and I have to stay in fight mode and I have been crying out of control with anger for last week everyday.I am so lost!My step dad tells my mom all the time that I need my mother because the way she is towards me and she is very manipulative to me.I need a advocate and a live in therapist seriously!