Does anyone have opinions or advice?

I really like my counselor. . . he's nice, and understanding, and level-headed. The advice he gives me seems right-on, and we pray together at the end because this is a Christian-based counseling.

But for whatever reason every time I leave I end up crying and feeling horrible and obsessing about my mental health.

I started having a panic attack towards the end of the session Monday and didn't really realize that's what it was until I got home awhile later. I started freaking out thinking that I was having some sort of "episode" and was losing control or something. The room was feeling all floaty and funky.

Anyway. . . I realized it was just a panic attack and got calmed down and felt better the next day.

But I'm just wondering why I feel so horrible after I leave and if that can be a good sign or if it's something to make me think this counseling is not good for me.

The part that messes with my head is that when I am having a panic attack normally I feel it coming and I start doing different self-talk and breathing and get over it.

Because I try to set aside all my defenses when I get in there and just tell him everything and let myself feel EVERYTHING, I think it's hard to turn it all off and go back into the "real world" again. And then I'm bouncing back and forth in my head between.. . . stop thinking about it and just get back to work and. . . . you need to experience these feelings to heal.

And I also have a huge mental health fear so sometimes if I feal out of control I think I'm going crazy and that doesn't help.

Has anyone else experiencing thist? I'm almost feeling like I don't want to go back but I really think he can help me if I can get past that.