Your post really touched me. I know how you feel. I have been there. I have struggled with that question in my own life and in my studies of the lives of others. It is tough to see God as Almighty on the one hand, and experience the evils of His creatures on the other. It is a paradox that is not easily contained.

That said, don't look now but... ummmm.... your nickname says it all! Freewill! Indeed, freewill explains it all. I don't believe God picked you, or me, or any other individual or group to be abused. I believe your perpetrator(s) chose you because they could.

God gave humankind freewill. The ability to choose right or wrong, good or bad. We humans, for example, can use alcohol for cleaning or preserving or whatever, OR we can use it to alter the mind and harm self / others.

Ditto, say, nuclear science -- it can be used to bring electricity to entire cities and nations AND / OR, it can be used to obliterate whole cities and nations. The freewill of mankind... specifically individuals AND / OR groups of individuals will determine how God's gifts are used.

No, Freewill, I do not believe God chose YOU to be abused. I believe God gave freewill to humankind and certain members of the human race misused their power against the Will of God to harm you. That was their choice. NOT His.

Indeed, God is almighty. And in His infinite wisdom and His might, He saw fit to provide humankind with freewill. Just as your perpetrators chose their attitude and actions, you get to choose as well. He gave YOU that right, too.

You could choose to follow in the steps of your perpetrator(s) and go against His will creating harm to self and others for selfish reasons, OR.... or... you could choose to align your will with the will of God and preserve your sanctity. Clearly you seem to prefer the latter choice.

I encourage you to see the perpetrators for the weak - among many other possible unflattering terms which could be used to describe them -individuals they are and to NOT blame God for their choices.

As they say in Texas, God, in His infinite wisdom, gave those idiots enough rope to hang themselves! Don't you go getting caught up in their rope... You've got rope of your own to manage!

As one fellow human-being to another, this is just my opinion, Freewill. I hope you find it useful.

C