I really appreciate all of the help that everyone has to offer in here - it's great.

I have been giving a lot of thought to taking one day a week and going out - whether it is to the park with the dogs or somewhere else that I would like to go without either my father or my husband - for at least 4-6 hours of me time. I really think I am missing this and have been for a long time, just have gotten use to not having it and forgotten that I need to do things that I enjoy and that make me happy and feel better besides taking care of everyone else.

I would love to take a week vacation but that doesn't seem possible between work and scheduling help to baby sit (dad and husband) until late spring. But I am beginning to start to plan a week - just for me and what I want to do and to be able to sleep/eat and go on my schedule would be nice. - Dreaming is a wonderful way to get away when reality doesn't let us go for real.

Anyway - thanks I really appreciate all the help I have received writing helps, it makes me think about me and it makes me feel responsible to do what I think I want to do with getting away even just for a few hours to try and get my mind back -