Seeker, I want to say thankyou for explaining details about yourself and I better agree and must logically with you that the ******** can cause a slowing of my journey for no apparent reason. I too am working on a degree in something at college and find myself getting too insecure especially with certain classes, and trying to fall back on the love scene for a break temporily. I reason from your words of experience that I might get permantly sidetracked or if not that I may not complete the dream for myself in Business Administration and Journalism news reporting. I know that even though I am early fourties, that time might just slip too fast and i may lose the mark i have been aiming at. I thank you for the candid honesty and am reflecting more carefully on my behavior. I can't say I am changing quickly enough but Know that I can decide to do it soon. Thankyou Seeker