I feel like that sometimes. I think it comes from the stigma all of us are surrounded with. Depressed people are told "you could be happy if you tried" and "It's all in your head" (how ironic) and "you're just not trying to be happy". That makes some of us feel like we are a fraud. I don't believe you're making a sham of an illness, dear. It's a very hard thing to accept because we are always told not to.

((many hugs))