I didn't know I was DID until 1989 when a rape crisis counselor recognized my spacing off and other symptoms and asked that I go through testing.

Then I went through years and years of denial after the testing showed I had MPD (the old term for DID). Once I was diagnosed I covered everything possiblem. If I couldn't remember the conversation I would say "what" as if I didn't hear the person and they would explain in more detail wh at they were asking me, Started wearing a watch that told the date so that I did not have to ask anyone for the time or date, and so on.

Then when my child was in foster care the first time due to my being suicidal my lawyer on the case then forbid SKR and I to disclose to anyone outside of the therapy agency that I had this so again I did not tell any one.

It has only been the last year -year and a half that I have been able to tell people that I am DID and then I don't tell very many people.

See the way I see it theres no reason for me to just tell anyone and everyone - hey I have DID. Whats it to other people for example people at the library, where I shop and so on that I have DID. I don't go around telling just anyone about my sex life of my physical health problems so theres no reason that I should do so with having DID.

The people that do know that I am DID is one of my local friends because she's an active part of helping me come up with therapy projects and is also a part of my therapy program from time to time, A couple of my friends that were a part of the support group I was in back east one because she has DID and we help each other from time to time and the other friend from the group knows because she had a daughter that was also DID. I also have an email- letter pen pal that also knows and They have all been in my life in some cases 14 years so I know they would never abuse knowing that I have DID. If anything they all want the best for me and point me in the right directions on how to keep myself on track.

Oh yea I recently told the people in the depression management group. The group is run by LL my therapist and there were a few of us in there that have her for clients and so I figured there had to be atleast one or more dissociatives possibly to the point of having DID in the room. So I figured why not, lets just barrel right on in to the group with both feet all at once. Im glad I did for more than one person said they experience "something" like what I was talking about. and one person did she was also a multiple. so now I know for sure Im not the only one in the group.