I don't have T's number so I can't text her... although I secretly really wish I could. I asked her about contacting and she said when she is in the office I can call if something is going on but I have only done that once. Otherwise I only call about scheduling stuff. I do email her although I probably should stop doing that because I feel like I am bothering her and she doesn't like when I do it. I wish I could have more contact outside of sessions with her because what if something really goes wrong? Renfrew (the center I go to) has an on-call clinician number which is like a crisis line to call in emergencies but the phone rotates between different therapists who work there and I am too afraid to call it. She always tells me to but I think she knows I won't. Ugh... so frustrating.