I totally know the feeling. May I ask how old you are? I have menopause mixed in with UNBELEIVABLE Psychological Abuse by my Employer & Union that I've been fighting agressively for last 3 years (but harassment started like 8 yrs ago, I just didn't realize it'd NEVER end, they're THAT ruthless)! So, it's all VERY confusing, for me, and/or any therapist or diagnosis I get. But, thanks for describing one thing.. I've been told befoer that I'm like a Chameleon.. or that I immediately take on the personality and/or interests of any man I just met that I'm attracted to/dating...ffffaaarrr too fast.. LOSE MYSELF is what you called it. Me too! And I always blamed it on being a Gemini (or the youngest of 9 kids, raised by dysfunctional parents). It's making better sense now, under the 'label' of BPD (yet, I've never 'self-harmed' intentionally, cutting, etc). KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT ALONE.
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Originally Posted by x_BabyG_x
I feel like I have no sense of 'self' anymore. Like I'm a different person with whoever I'm socialising with, like I'm reflecting who they are back on to them. I'm starting to wonder if this is why I see to form bonds wherever I go?
Also, I just don't know what my emotions are, I just cant distinguish from them. I'm a little jigsaw puzzle and the pieces fit together, but each piece has its own feel to it, like each one is in another dimension and it's lost. I have different me's in my head telling me different ideas and thoughts and telling me how i Should feel. I'm fragmented and I'm losing my physical body because of it. I don't know who I am, i dont know whats real and I don't feel like I exist anymore.
Sorry guys i just had to get that it I don't know what he frig is going on recently!,
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