You are good person, you have courage - you came here and you expressed your fears that takes lots of courage and wisdom to know that you are having feelings that are not a true picture of you - you need to stop and look at the good things you have already done in your life and know that you are a good, kind, courageous person who is beautiful inside and out and take inventory of all of your accomplishments - long ago past, recent past and present and know that you have lots of good things to do in the future and you will do them - keep a smile on your face and try to think of only good things about yourself - you don't have to think of the bad stuff every time you think something negative about yourself stop and say 'hey no, I don't have to think this way' and replace that thought with a positive one -
keep your chin up and smile ....