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Originally Posted by InfiniteSadness
...i DONT have the energy or willpower to change things or venture out of my comfort zone. So i do the same thing everyday. Perhaps i truly dont want to change?! But i'm damn sure not happy the way im living... terrible situation.
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That's an excellent description of depression. The desire to change
is present,
imagining change may be possible, but the psychological paths to actual change are blocked.
My ability to "force" myself to do things died long ago. Incremental change can happen, but it happens mysteriously -- short bursts of uncontrolled energy come out of nowhere. Occasionally those bursts of energy coincide with short periods of mental focus. When that happens I do something.
I have not found a way to control this dynamic.
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.