Seems the stars have aligned impeccably to create a situation where I am being wounded from multiple angles. I really want to retrogress to some previous behaviors. I don't really see any reason not to. I do nothing but cry. I just feel like seeking a way to get hurt. Maybe that's the solution. If you look for it, it isn't a surprise. I am considering never opening up to a human again. I don't understand them. They are all so very bleak and frigid. It is a cold, dim world out there. I knew that. I guess I simply, for a time, let go. My mistake. Won't happen again