You did really good to eat what you ate given the stress you are feeling. Knees are strange....for me, change in weather or if a storm is coming up with make my knee hurt....or if your PT did a little bit extra work on your knee the last time....all can have an effect on how the knee is feeling without our realizing why.

Glad you ate enough to have a enough energy for having a romantic evening with your H....made it worth eating I'm sure.

Glad today had some good news in it also.....seems it helps with the feelings of depression.

Early yesterday morning around 5am, I decided to fix the frozen eggplant Parmesan I had....was hungry for it....but it effected my system.....went right through & the cramps were horrible......so strange how some foods effect me that way more than others....definitely cleaned out my system better than any laxitives could have ever done but left me feeling miserable.

I had a good meeting with my psychologist yesterday afternoon however, helping me deal with all the issues I'm having dealing with stbxh who I really just hate & all the emotions I have regarding my bad feelings for him. Went & looked at paint colors for painting the rooms in my house. Came home & worked in the yard...mowed the area right in front of the house......woo hoo, the county came by & mowed the strip next to the street, now I can finish mowing myself & have my farm look like a park again. Got through mowing after 11pm & decided to initiate my new BBQ by grilling a bacon wrapped fillet & corn on the cob....it couldn't have been more perfect. The first time I have ever BBQ'ed & it came out perfect & so was the corn.....even if it was a midnight dinner, it was so enjoyable......oh, I love my BBQ....don't have to heat up the kitchen now during the summer to have a delicious meal & it's quick & easy to throw on a piece of meat....20 minutes later.....the perfect dinner.

Find when I'm outside & working in the yard, my appetite gets to be much greater & I have to find something to eat.

Weather was really hot yesterday, but today it just hit 90.....so I don't feel as miserable.....heat also takes away my appetite for sure....& the stress of dealing with stbxh is a real killer of appetite.

I had a really nice talk with the California DMV person when I was trying to find out information on the car I left my H....we actually shared some of our bad marriage experiences.....somehow sharing & knowing that we are not alone does validate what we are going through.....she was a lot of help is resolving what I need to do to clear up some paperwork that's been hanging for 6 years in getting the title for my horse trailer also.

When I'm the only one in the house it seems like I just get finished fixing one meal & it's time for the next....it's no wonder I only am willing to spend time willingly making one meal a day or it feels like I'm constantly in the kitchen making a mess that needs to be cleaned up rather than doing anything else around my farm......maybe because I'm so disorganized.