Hello yall and thank you for reading !

On my interest, ive been looking to somewhere where i could express my feelings , and i thought maybe that would be the right place. I have many issues ...
The thing is that i huess i am regretting a past choice i made because it had totally changed my life for a lot pf negativity.

First of all, i was born with a birthmak on my face, and it was pretty noticeable .

In my teenage, i was tired of living with it because of many constaints i lived with the fact of being different , etc...

Then i decided to hav it removed. But the problem is that now, i dont move.
I dont go out because i am kinda nervous and ashame of showing myself when outside. The surery has left me a scar , but mostly has changed my face . Things is i have to wear eyeglasses but i do t wear them in public because i think i might be a really igly look with the eyeglasses on .

I dont har job, nor friends, nor school. Im stck at home everyday because of my fear. I already talked to an online psychologist for an while, and she told me
That maye i dont feel like myself in the place i live because people lnew me like i was in the past so when i see them i feel shy .

Nonetheless, it make so long. My mom
Do nothig about it ... Im almos 20, and that make years i loss into this.

I just fear to be alone and grow old losing my sight , my time , my young and have no wife, no important job etc all because of these issues.

I dot live with my father( unfortunately) , but the few time i go live at his home i feel really good. I feel like i am alive , and can do everything. Because my dad pushes me in the back, ifeel like strong with him.

Sometime i think back and think if i wouldnt have done surgery i wouldnt have all these mental issues .