I wish I could tell you something to help you.I cannot all I can say is I can relate. I wish I had more family and friends that could take time to try to understand this whole mess!I have nobody but a few friends a far and a older sister.My mom has turned on me and my best friend all because of money!They do not care about me.I like being alone now because I get very irritated, paranoid, and I am sensitive to EVERYTHING.I find that my home is a "safe zone" for me and I can turn phones off and just avoid everyone.It does get very lonely, but every time I try to interact with people that are just associates I get disappointed and put in a bad place.I cannot take anymore relapses from trying to deal with people.You can always come here when you want to talk to people who can understand you.That is always a good thing that I am thankful for.I hope you find some peace and take it easy on yourself.